our little secret

went to visit him in the hospital today.

his skinny body mades the bed looks big, much bigger than normal sized bed you can see in the ward.

he was sleeping soundly, i couldnt bear to wake him up

still, i want him to see me in person though.

i sat beside quietly, trying to remember every part of his face.

suddenly, he opened his eyelids and looked surprised to see me there.

"gong" i greeted. he just look at me and went back to his dreamland

not long later, i see tears flowing at the corner of his shut eyes.

without opening his eyes, he trembled his hand all the way up to dry the tears.

i stood there, telling myself "never you cry, wenna. never you let him see you cry"

i held his hand and wait for him to fell aslp again.

"this is our little secret" i said as i realised this was the second time he cried secretly infront of me, alone, lying on a hospital bed.

and i told myself i had to leave the place before my emotions arise again.

nevertheless, i still broke down before meeting my friends.

what can i do for him?