i didn't know, so did you.

was digusted by my x-ray.

the urge of breaking down roses upon seeing my very own skull structure.

"that's me?"

oh god.

i dinno it was so serious.

i always thought its just a normal lowerbite.

my upper jaw was crooked which was the reason of my wide nose.

it was retruded too.

i was so disgusted of whats forming under my skin and tissues.

the surgeon say if i were to go under knife,

they gonna work on both jaws.

im so scared, to be honest.

however,

its seriously affecting my life.

you never know how depress it was to me when i can't chew my food down.

you don't even know that i have been relying on pills to digest my food, don't you.

how could you not even hear me out for this?

i am not even asking for money

all i need is your understanding and encouragement.

although its not liferisking surgery

but its gonna be a really painful and long-time costing one.

you can't even sit down and hear my explaination.

all you said was "forget it"

forget what? forget the fact that i can't chew my food?

forget the fact that i am looking freaky weird for my profile?

i thought i was a freak when i was young.

"why do i look different from others?"

"why you care so much about looks?"

i know you might say looks aint important

but sorry thats bullshit.

because you are not me.




anyway

can you believe?

that guy overheard our conversation

and he told mum he will lend me money if i ask from him.

this is weird.

however i know i will have to bear the consequences if i accept that sum,

forget it man, forget it.
















i know few might read this blog of mine.
don't worry
just let me whine over here alright.